yes we will be going to New Orleans. hopefully.

i was deferred from MIT....oh well.  Jeff spoke to me today for like half an hour and i love him.  he tried to make me feel better even though i didnt need it.  i am so scared im going to be shut out.  hopefully i wont be.  i need to feel secure.

i like talya's adam green cd....its judt like me...outwardly cheery, but inwardly depressed.  i have nothing to do today...WDE.  i called jonah to tell him i got deferred and asked him if he wanted to chill tonight.  he wasnt there so i left a message.  hopefully he'll call me back.  i really miss him.  i am so sad we are growing apart and talk less and less.  i really miss him, he is one of the greatest friends i've ever had bc i could tell him anything.  JONAH, CALL ME BACK!!!  i've got to go eat now....stuff my face with lots and lots of food.  bye bye.

Currently Playing Logic Will Break Your Heart By Stills see related

- 6-Ready For It

So...Lizzie and I may be going to New Orleans over February break, I mean assuming that everything works out and neither of our parents back out. Wow, how awesome would that be! Four or five days and busride-NICE!

A few days ago, some teacher asked us to go to Staples to get some video tapes and he gave us the school credit card. So we bought the tapes and a ten dollar tin of altoids. Ha Ha, nice or what? Just pray that they don't find out or notice when the bill comes or we'll be so fucking in for it. *crosses fingers*

Tal

Currently Playing Its the Ones Whove Cracked That the Light Shines By Jeffrey Lewis see related

Applications

On the other hand, have just looked at the Boston University Financial Aid guide and have happily discovered that I JUST fall into the category which gives the largest scholarships. Like my score is the cutoff mark, so by that I qualify for that scholarship YAY. Plus I have a good GPA and awesome extra curriculars so my nerves arent nearly as on the edge as they were before.

But this first semester of senior year has been so hard and I dont think im doing well in any of my classes. i really hope this semester doesnt affect things. I DONT have senioritis goddamit not that badly and not so soon. Im so afraid its going to appear that way though. Oh meh.

So Lizzie says she doesnt want to go to all the trouble of having fun this year because she doesnt want to piss off the principal. As the sworn enemy of said principal, I can safely say that it doesnt affect anything. Sure you get some dirty looks every now and again,and you are watched more than the others. But if you know how to get away with things, its okay. Maybe Im jinxing myself by saying all this, who knows, but who the hell wants to play it safe senior year, and who cares what the principal thinks anyway? Please.Sorry Liz, but its true and youre gonna wind up having a boring year unless you loosen up a bit.

Okay back to essay writing.

Tal

FUCK...MY JCC LESSON WITH DEATH KID IS UNCANCELLED...SHIT...

If this lesson doesnt work out, i'm going to tell them i'm not doing it anymore, because i really cannot deal with that kid.  he is such a fucking cry baby with social and emotional problems.

I get my liscense in 24 days...time to start count down.

I hate judaism...its so retarded, its just ppl making things up to make themselves feel good.  how do they know about if there is even an afterlife?  all they say is we're doing good deeds to gain a place in heaven in the after life "olam habah"...i don't get how they know it even exists if there is no one to witness it.  Our religion is crap.

~elizabeth

well, this week was intense so far:

1) i had my first college interview (MIT), which went so well, the interviewer loved me.  It was great...she's even planning in keeping in touch with me.  The interview was over half an hour which, she told me, is the longest her interviews ever were.  I'm so happy.  She made me love MIT even more than i did before through her stories of her life there.  It sounds like such a fun place to be.  btw, i finally finished my application today.

2)  Some random girl from binghamton called me.  Her name was jessica and she's a senior.  she wanted to know if i had any questions and stuff.  I thought that that was a nice thing for the school to do...to have seniors call prospective students.  Binghamton is where my bf is.  Its a really great school and a lot of fun.  I would not mind at all if i ended up there.  Also, its really cheap and i could probably go for free...and right now i dont know what's happening with my family and i may really need money or a cheap school.  But i still better get into MIT b/c it's the best place on earth.

3) ms. kohl, our new asst principal, called me out of class for the 70th time this year.  She always thinks i ditch class but i dont.  tal ditches more than me...i have genuine excuses, but i never get a note because in previous years they never cared.  What's going on? I'm going to fail residency.

4)  I'm really sad because one of my best friends, ori, is going to join the israeli army next year for his "year in israel".  His father is israeli so he feels that he has a duty to serve his country. I think he's being really stupid.  It's not that easy to survive the army out there.

5)  My lesson of doom in the jcc was cancelled for sunday...Best Day Ever!!! no whiney annoying kid with severe emotional problems who tries to get his instructor fired.  yes, i was almost fired for teaching him swimming because some woman thought i was abusing him and she called up my boss to complain. 

6)  this saturday i have to do groups for the four year olds at shul...i am going to kill jeff, my aquatics director from the summer for recruiting me...he plays such devious mind games...he really made me want to do this, i dont know how or why, but now my mind is back to normal and i am asking myself, "what the fuck is wrong with me?"

7)  i think my mom went to a shrink about our family.  It underwent a drastic change in ambiance in the past month and a half.  im not sure if its true but i suspect it...when i questioned her about it, she got all defensive but never denied it.  i really think she went.  i wonder if she's going to make me go...she better not.

i'm getting tired...i got to go...love, your favorite chest hitter